Wednesday, August 29, 2007

My Surprise Party

Dito na magsisimula ang masayang moment…(^_^)

After nun, hatid na ako ni popoy sa amin, sabi niya daan muna kami kina anton kasi kukunin niya ang copy ng thesis niya. Ewan ko ba dahil sa tinagal tagal naman di ko naisip na bakit ngaun lang niya naisipan kunin. Galing din naman gumawa ng reason ni gary eh. Alam kasi niya na maniniwala ako. Hmp! Then, nagpaload sya. Di naman pumasok. Hehe. Sabi ko gamitin niya CP ko. Ewan ko ba at di ko pa din naisip na bakit need niya magtext sa CP niya eh, nakaplan naman ako. Ayun. Syempre, the sleepyhead lie on his lap while he texted.

Wala pa din idea si bakekang. Nun nakasakay na kami papunta bayan, ibinaba niya ulit ulo ko sa lap niya. Di naman ulit ako nagtaka..Ewan ko ba? Manhid lang talaga ako.

After, lakad kami sa subdivision ni anton. Nun nasa may gate na kami..nakatalikod si anton. Sbi ko pa. Mukhang may party pa sa kanila ah kasi may videoke. Tinutulak ako ni popoy. Sabi niya ayun o..tatay ni anton..eh si anton na pala yun. Wahaha. Kulit. Nakasara ng unti ang pinto. Tas pagpasok namin.

Surprise!

Ayun sila. May bros and sissies. Di kumpleto pero okay naman kasi nandun si Teta. Bestfriend ko. Masaya na ako. Di kasi kami masyado naguusap. Tagal na din.

Tulala pa din ako. Speechless. Tas kainan. Tulala pa din. Hehe..Si mulan ang may pakana ng lahat (Whew! See what my koino family has done, we had a very serious fight before and yet we stayed good friends).




Undefinable. So Magical.

We had toast for my quest to Land Down Under. (kahit wala pa visa ko)

Tas kantahan. Kami mga girls. Missed the old days. Akyat kami sa Room. Had our girls talk. I missed my gurlfwends. And I really wanna have that kind of chikahan before I leave.



Mga boys? Meron din. Inuman. Nalasing nga si gary, di ko pa yun nakitang nalasing. Ang daldal eh. Depressed malamang. Di pa kasi naming talaga napag-uusapan pano ba ang set-up (medyo sad part itu!)

To end the day/night/day ulit?!? Kasi till dawn eh..all I can say is that I am ready for my journey kasi I know that many pipol believed in my ability to make this successfully.

To all those that has been part of the Surprise Despidida..thank you po..sobrang nakakatouch talaga…Sana makasunod kayo no? Para dun tayo lahat. Hehe. Wish.

So I am definitely leaving..hay..nervous and excited again at the same time. That same old feeling.

A great Sunday indeed!!!

Late Sunday Kwento

Sunday was a great day..and so great that I was not able to post the story right after. Medyo may aftershock pa ako sa surprise ng aking pinakamamahal na koinonia. Since that was the first time that my fellow bros and sissies did to me, super nakakatuwa ang feeling.

Just to gave you a peek of what a great Sunday it was..

Umaga pa lang..puro kakulitan na ako…hehe…dahil excited akong makita si gary after a week of not seeing each other (weekly lang naman kasi kami magkita), ang aga-aga kong umalis sa bahay..in order to make it sa usapan namin na 9am. Tumawag ako using our super tipid Sun Cellular fone. At ayun, di pa daw siya naliligo. Hanuba yan..parang nawala bigla ang excitement ko. And the ever moody bakekang that is me, binabaan ko sya ng fone. O di ba? Tindi lang ng BF na makakatiis sa aking moods (and popoy has successfully did it for more than 4 years na! kasi siya lang naman naging bf ko ever). So ayun. Sa biyahe. Naghihimutok ang loob ko kasi nga nauna ako sa kanya. E ayoko ng pinagiintay ako. Wehehe. Pero sya pede magwait. Nun nafifil ko na mauuna siya sa akin, unti ng naglaylow ang emosyon ko. Syempre. Talo ako eh. Mas malapit naman kasi ang LB sa Letran. Nang magkita kami. Tulala siya. Ako. Nakataas ang kilay. Nun magHHWW na kami. Tumawa ako. At ayun. Hug niya ako at sabay pingot. Pinag-alala ko daw siya at nagmadali daw siya sa paliligo.

Wehehe. Kulit ko no? Kain kami sa Jobee sa kanto. Kita namin sina Kuya Riki at Toni parang may LQ, meron nga!!!! Hahaha..habang sila ay nagdramahan pa sa kabilang table kami ni popoy, tawanan lang kasi nga ang drama ko nun kausap ko sya sa fone. Ay! Binaba ko nga pala agad.

After nun, diretso kami sa Gym ng Letran. Attend ng sportsfest. Kwento sa mga members at alumni. Picture2x! Masaya. Pero not the one that we used to have. Malamang kasi nga oldies na ako. Hehe. Pero masaya pa din. Kausap ang bawat isa. No dull moments pa din.

Tawanan.

Kainan time. The traditional eating ceremony for applicants ito. Hehe. Ako, wala sa mood kasi gusto ko ng Tudings. Unti lang eat ko kasi wait ko ang tudings pag uwi.

Basketball.
Laban alumni at members. Talo kami. Hehe. What would that mean? Syempre, pinagbigyan naming sila kasi naman tapos na kami sa efforts na yun. Wahaha..wat an excuse!

Interview. It is way a bit uplifting that still my organization has this uniqueness that “others” tried to copy but failed to do so. (issue na naman ito!!!) Haha. One thing I know, there is a magic, (that an applicant should not quit to experience that certain magic) that all of the inducted members felt. Masarap din kasi na mashare mo na ang magiging part ng pamilya kung ang experience mo kasi alam mong makakatulong yun sa kanya at magiging masaya siya sa magiging buhay niya for the next few years na Certified Koinonian na sya.

So after the full packed Day, we headed for Tudings. My moment. Hehe. But before that, punta kami bhaus kasama si kuya dexter. Usap sila. Tulog ako. Alis na kami. Eat sa tudings. Sarap. Hehe.

Sa Next post ang next event...

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

HOW TO CONTROL EMOTIONS (^_^)

This is a very good reminder for all of us.





This would give you guides on how to control your emotions towards your better-half, friends, officemates and all the people around you, especially your "boss".


The rules of practicing "ugaling langit, ugaling kaaya-aya"


#1 Ang naunang magalit ang may karapatang magalit. Pag naunahan ka na ng galit niya, tumahimik ka na lang muna.
#2 Walang taong nag-aaway mag-isa. Pag hindi kayo sumagot o pumatol, titigil din daw ang taong nakikipag- away sa inyo.

#3 Ang taong galit, 'bingi.' If someone is angry, wala raw pinakikinggan, so, don't try to explain and fight back. Hindi ka niya iintindihin dahil wala siyang naririnig kundi ang sarili nya.

#4 Ang taong galit, 'abnoy.' Ayon sa pastor, Biblical daw ito? because the Lord said when He was crucified, "Father, patawarin mo sila dahil hindi nila alam ang kanilang ginagawa." Modern term for these kinds of people are abnoys, so you better not get angry para huwag kang matawag na abnoy.

You should also know and realize that the persons who make your day bad are jewel, because you need them for you to mature. Hangga't andyan daw sila at kinaiinisan mo, ibig sabihin, immature ka pa. God will not take away those people; it's for you to take away your bad feelings towards them. You'll know na mature ka na pag dumating 'yung time na hindi ka na naiinis sa mga taong ito because you have learned to accept them and to have patience with them.

#5 Finally, the best part of this is to tell yourself na, because of this
person, "I will grow mature," and that...
DAHIL SA CONTRIBUTION NIYA SA MATURITY MO, KUKUNIN DIN SYA NI LORD.
Hope this help you a bit of making your day as positive as possible!
Have a great day ahead!!!
***galing sa isang forwarded email***

Friday, August 24, 2007

~ The End ~


Matagal na din akong walang updates, and I know I owe a lot of kwento to my few friends/passersby. Wehehe..actually, it is a combination of busy-ness and katamaran at the same time. Kasi last week was my last week in my work. Whew! I cannot help myself to be ngarag and excited coz I will be able to be out which I have been thinking for the longest time ever. Simula pa lang ng work ko dun, I really wanna quit for so many reasons. Basta, that was not a good working experience, and I know that I may have left few good pipol but that was not enough for me to hold on to the job. It was a blessing in disguise, I believe, for my friend whom I referred to replace my job.


For all the things, I cannot help myself to feel this kind of feeling. Joyful. Free. Enlightened. Because all along I believe that I have been a prisoner of my wrong decision. It has always been my motto that we have a freedom to choose what we want but do not have the freedom to choose the necessity of our choice. I really do not know what has made me hang on with my work, what has been the reason/s why I still worked for the company even for the so many grudges that I have. It may be because of few pipol whom I had good personal interaction making my stay a bit bearable.


Good thing that this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity came (which I promise to announce in weeks time). I now have the reason not to stay long and burden myself with the so many things that pushed me to the limits.


I am now at home. Yah! And I never felt so relaxed. I have been so tensed with the deadlines and everything which I know myself that I am capable not to spill my emotions that easy. I am good at those crucial moments. I can easily go through smoothly to a situation where there is a need for a good decision. With the help of my angel (holy spirit) I am able to get out successfully in whatever diffucult situation I am in. And when I was there at my desk, I didn't know what to do...I really am scattered. I misplaced myself. My emotions are very visible. And I cannot control myself and let the pipol see how weak I am.


Yes, I felt very weak yet I pretend to be strong. So many times that I really do not know where I am going through.


When I passed the board exam last year, it was one of the best accomplishments that I had (together with the financial help of Popoy too!). I am so full of dreams. I am so ambitious. I know that I have proven myself that I can go far beyond what other pipol (they know who they are..wahaha =P) has stopped me from doing. I know that there is much better things in life ahead of mine. I WAS inspired. That was before I worked for the company. I do not want to blame them. But it was all I felt. Betrayed. Unfair/Bias. Full of very competitive pipol.

All I want is to get out.


Just the thought of it, my last day came, last August 17, 2007. It was raining so hard. I felt not going to work. I did. I was screaming aload for obvious reasons. Dancing to every beat of my heart. Yes, I was truly, madly, deeply crazy. Crazy enough that I know I have made the right choice. I am back to my usual self. I missed being like this. I missed all the fun stuff that I used to do. I missed being with my Koino family for all the events that I should have attended to but was not able to do since I have to work even on Sundays. I missed the gala we used to have with daduts, john at little sissy. I missed being with popoy. I missed my life for the eight months that has passed. And now I am back with revenge to make the most of what I missed over that long and tedious months. With the few weeks that I have, I should be able to maximize the time I have with my loved ones.


So whatever events you have there, please please invite me. If I am available, I will come.


Weeeeh! Sunday is Koino Sportsfest. We (with popoy of course!) will come. Next monday, we will visit Judy, our preggy tropa in Pila, Laguna to make up the lost kwentos and everything. We will be having our group date at MOA, when? I really do not know. But sure thing, it will come. Ooooops! I missed my Accenture friends, I am going to visit them once again.


Sana I can really make the most of it. So when the time that I am about to go. I have good memories to bring with me. Crying time is also near. Huhu. But at least, I was able to regain the true me before I leave. Where? Secret. Just keep on reading my site and you will know.


Party Pipol on a Friday night!!!!!



Wednesday, August 8, 2007

When it rains...it pours.. =)

and I am happy with it..hahaha..

(grab from flickr)
with the nonstop falling of rain..kagabi pa lang..nakangiti na ako..

ikaw, di ka ba natutuwa? kahit sumakit ang balakang ko sa pag-upo sa bus dahil sobrang trapik.
at nakabili pa ako ng payong ng 50PHP sa may magallanes, masaya pa rin ako dahil umuulan.

Bakit?

Kasi need natin yun..we need rain right? Because of the drought that we are experiencing right now.

For those who are concern for our future generation, simple lang po..just click in the link in my "Simple Lang" post.

"Ohhhh..I hear laughter in the rain..walking hand in hand with the one I love..
Ooh how I loved the rainy days, and the happy way I feel inside"

(iksis: popoy, im thankful..you brighten my day)

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

One Bite at a Time

to release the undefined anxiety...

Simple Lang

Isang click..makakatulong ka na.. =)

Simple lang, pledge for the planet!

Sagipin natin ang Inang Kalikasan!!!

Thursday, August 2, 2007

Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo?!?

Most of us, in our twenty-something years of existence on earth, are probably considering this next level of relationship. We all know that it is not all happiness and success in that kind of stage. Most marriages nowadays are weak and ends up getting annulment/divorce.

I wanna share with you an inspiring story from an email I got from my ever-wonderful second family's group email, KOINONIA DE LETRAN.

So here it goes. Happy Reading. =)

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking.

I want a divorce.

I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question.

This made her angry.

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible.

Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me.

But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.

From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning.
This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote,
I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah.. blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

"Marriage is falling in love over and over again,
ALWAYS WITH THE SAME PERSON. "

Happiness.