Hello Santa

Dear Santa God,

Christmas is in the air nowadays, and I really wanna tell yah something..

I know that amidst what happened during the past years, I always believed that I had been a good girl (hehe..) because you have given me the best gift I ever wished/wanted for...

Gabriel has always been good to me, even before he is in my tummy..and now that almost eight months passed, he never been a headache to naynay. I know though I had my share of sleepless nights, I always will look it up as another phase where I became another person to another being. My experience as a mom has been overwhelming but I surpassed it all. I know, it is not because I am strong, but you are. I believe that more challenging phases will come next year and future years, but I believe I will get through it, WE will get through it. Thanks for being my companion through the years.

With regards to your "old" gift, Gary, he remains to be my very special friend, the best boyfriend (I only had him naman..nyehehe), the best husband and the best father to my little Gabriel. I know that you share this man to me because I lack sense of humor which he has a lot. I have more of it now! Ahaha. I am so grateful for the rest of my life for accepting him as your gift to me.

Thank you for these two human being that kept me insane ever since they became part of my life..and I am loving it! I wish I can be the best WIFE (Gary) and MOM (Gabriel) to them.

P.S. I am always trying my best to be a Good Girl..hihi..for more gifts in the future!!!

Your Trying Hard Good Girl,

~Bakekang~

ATE

Tatlong letra. Pero may napakalaking papel para sa ating lahat. Masarap nga bang meron ate? Di ko alam. Ako kasi yan sa pamilya namin. PANGANAY na BABAE.

Dami din kasing pagkakataon na nagdadalawang isip ako sa bawat hakbang at desisyon ko. Dapat nga bang gawin kasi ATE KA, o hindi dapat kasi ATE KA LANG.

Ang alam ko lang, ang ate ay pangalawang babae sa pamilya. Sumunod sa nanay. Ang responsibilidad halos na rin sa nanay pero walang awtoridad para maging nanay. Madaming hinihingi sa iyo at inaasahan pero ang karapatan parang kulang. Madami na din ang pangyayari na gumawa ako ng desisyon kasi ATE AKO at sa huli di naman pala dapat kasi nga ATE LANG AKO.

Mahirap. Lalo na at ang taong dapat mong gabayan at pagpayuhan meron na din naman pag-iisip. Tatahimik ka na lang ba? O gagawa ng paraan para maayos siya?

Kasi ATE KA..o ATE KA LANG?

Hahayaan mo na lang ba siya kasi nakikita mong masaya na siya sa napili niya habang may nasasaktan sa bawat ginagawa niya. Ang lungkot kasi nagsawa ka na sa pagsasabi ng katotohanan sa kanya at di din naman maintindihan. Ang Hirap kasi nakokonsyensya ka na hindi siya pansinin. Ang Sakit kasi nababalewala ka at di nabibigyan ng halaga at nirerespeto.

Ano nga ba ang halaga ng isang ATE? Mapunan ko kaya ang tunay na kahulugan nito?

Nagdrama na naman si bakekang. Pasensya na.

Surbaybor Pilipins

Nina Sulit.

Ako Yan. (Nun Dalaga)

Natuwa lang ako dahil dalawa sa contestant sa palabas na ito. Nabuo ang pangalan ko.

Si Niña.

Isang ina, mautak, kinatatakutan nga siya ng mga kasama niya sa Tribo ng Jarakay (Buwaya sa salitang Thai). Sa simula pa lang, kita mo na may masasabi siya. Kumbaga, katatakutan mo na. At kung di siya nagkaroon ng fracture sa toe. Malamang siya na ang isusunod na i-vote out. Hehe. Kasi nga magaling siya at threat siya sa ibang miyembro lalo na kay marlon na masyadong ding mautak. Nakakatuwa din siya kasi siya sa lahat ang naging close kay Patani (ang yaya na gustong maging artista). One thing I admire is that I can see that she is a true person. Basta nakikita mo sa mata na totoo siya at palaban. Parang ako. Wahaha. Blog ko ito. Walang kokontra.

Si Gigit. (Sulit)

Nang malaman ko na may Sulit na kasali sa Surbaybor. Naging interesado na ako. Bibihira lang kasi akong makakita ng mga Sulit sa teebee. Ahehe. Sa una palang makikita mo na sa kanya na may malalim siyang pagkatao. Yun tipong marami na siyang karanasan sa buhay. Nabasa ko nga ng website niya. At dun pa lang, humanga na ako sa mga prinsipyo niya. Galing. Sayang at siya ang nauna na vote out sa Tribo pa din ng Jarakay (courtesy of Marlon pa din). Dahil sa tingin ng lahat. Siya ang pinakamalakas at pinakamautak. Sayang at naalis na agad siya. Mahirap talaga ang contest na ito.

Pero may natutunan ako sa panonood nito. Sa buhay, kailangan mong maging matatag. Iba iba ang tao. Minsan kala mo yun kausap mo. Mapagkakatiwalaan. Kapag tumalikod ka. Ahas pala. Kailangan mong makibagay at kailangan mo din maging mautak.

At sa paglubog ng araw, isa lang ang dapat na pagkatiwalaan mo. Sarili mo.

Masayang paglalakbay sa masalimuot na gubat =)

~bakekang~

Kwentong UPCAT

Oooops! Una sa lahat..di ako isang alumni ng UP. Isa akong proud na Letranista. Gusto ko lang i-share ang naging karanasan ko noong nag take ako ng exam na ito. Nalaman ko kasi na meron isang indie film na ang title ay UPCAT, (istorya ng mag-ama habang kumukuha ng UPCAT) kaya na-inspire akong magwento. Hehe. Reminiscing.

Sampung taon na pala yun. Ang bilis ng panahon. Parang kailan lang. Lahat sa school, abala sa pag ayos ng requirements para sa UPCAT. Ako nun. Di pa sigurado kung mag take ako. Actually, kung di ako lumipat sa iskul na yun, di ako kukuha ng exam na yun. Naisip ko kasi baka di din naman ako pumasa (napaka pessimistic..wahaha). Kasi, para sa akin, malaki na yun 350 pesos (yata..di sigurado) na entrance exam. At ayoko din naman na gumastos si nanay kasi mahirap lang kami. Hehe. So ang ginawa ko, para makaligtas sa pagbabayad nun. Nagtanong tanong. At nun nalaman ko na pede pala kumuha ng walang bayad. Mega research ako papaano. Ayun, kailangan palang mag-provide ng ITR. Sapat na yun para maipakita mo na gusto mo man magexam, di naman kaya ng magulang mo.

At dahil isang butihing akawntant si ina, meron siya nun. Submit kami all the way to UP Los Banos, na para sa akin ay malayong lugar. (mula Sta. Rosa) Hehe. Pasa ng requirements. Intayin na lang daw namin ang desisyon if pede akong kumuha.

Intay.

Dumating ang araw. Buhat kay mamang kartero. Dala ang magandang balita. Pede na akong magexam. Galing.

Unang Realisasyon: ANG GALING NI NANAY!

~>Kasi di siya nag dalawang isip na samahan ako sa bundok (UPLB) kahit medyo alanganin kami na baka di ako payagan. Ang sarap na isipin na suportado ka ng magulang mo sa pangarap mo! Hay..Nanay, namiss na naman kita.

Balik sa kwento.

Dumating si takdang araw.

5am, Sta. Rosa. Late na kami. Kasi 6am ang registration. Waaaah! Dun ko nalaman na pede palang 1 oras lang ang biyahe simula sa Sta. Rosa hanggang UPLB. Bakit ngayon, masaya na akong makarating sa bundok (UPLB) sa dalawang oras na biyahe. Naku! Kapit ang kamay ko sa upuan habang nagmamaneho si daddy nun. Nyahaha.

Ikalawang Realisasyon: MAGALING DIN SI DADDY!

~> Dahil gagawin ang lahat para lang makaabot sa takdang oras. Wahaha. Masarap na naman ang puso ko. Sinuportahan ako.

Ang araw na magtake na kami ng UPCAT. Dun ako sa building ng mga katulad kong salat sa buhay (hehe..ulit). Dun ko lang din nalaman kaya pala wala kong nakitang schoolmate (na mayayaman..haha) ay inihiwalay silang nagbayad..sa amin na walang pera. haha na naman. Umabot kami. Siguro, mga 10 na lang ang nasa labas na nakapila ng dumating ako. Buti na lang at SULIT ang apelyido ko. Nakahabol ako sa dulo. Wehehe.

Wala naman akong preparasyon sa exam na iyon (may kayabangan..hehe). Sa akin lang, bahala na si batman. Kung tadhana na dito ako mag-aaral, papasa ako.

Ang Resulta. February yata ang release ng result. Antay kami. Nun nagsimula ng magpadala ang UP ng result. May mga masaya at syempre..madami ang nalungkot. Ako naman, nagiintay kay mamang kartero. Pero march na wala pa din ako sulat! Waaaah!

Isang Adbentyur. Kasama si Helen at Dianne, nagpunta kami sa UPLB. Naka uniform pa! Pers Taym kong magbiyahe nun ng medyo malayo. Biglaan lang.

Ang Drama. Pag dating sa Registrar, nakita namin, madami ang tao na tumitingin sa blackboard. Ako, na di alam ang gagawin, di muna tumingin, nagdasal lang. Mga 10 minutes, lumapit si Dianne, di niya nakita name niya. Lungkot. Ako, Kabado. Ahehe. At finally, nagdesisyun na akong tumingin...

Huwaaaat?!? Nandun ang name ko. dalawa pa! ..ang ngiti ko abot hanggang tenga. Wahaha. Kaya lang anu daw yun, pasado ako sa isang non-quota course (B.S. Biology) at waitlisted sa Computer Science.

Samakatuwid. Kahit pumasok ako sa UP, di ko matutupad ang pangarap kong maging isang Akawntant (na tulad ni nanay). At nun panahon na iyon, di ko alam kung anong meron sa future ko kapag kinuha ko ang B.S. Biology.

At ang nangyari. Kinailangan kong magdesisyon. Ambisyon o Institusyon.

Ito na nga ako ngayon, tinatamasa ang natupad kong ambisyon, ang maging isang Certified sa Pilit na Akawntant. Masaya ako. Kahit di man ako nakapasok sa UP. Pero yun mga experience ng UPCAT, yun pakiramdam na pede naman pala ako dun (pumasok) at yun maipakita at maiparamdam ng magulang mo ang kanilang naguumapaw na suporta sapat na para makuntento ako sa napili ko.

Natupad ko ang aking AMBISYON dahil sa suporta ng magulang ko. =)

Gaya Gaya Part II

nakita ko sa blog ni lois buno..isang aktibong alumni ng OSA servi =)

at dahil tatlo na ang apelyido na gamit ko..ARCIAGA - SULIT - CACANANTA

Unahin natin ang apelyido ni nanay - ARCIAGA

Statistics for Arciaga:

• Arciaga is the 53904th most common family name in the United States

• Arciaga occurs 359 times in the most recent US Census (2000)

• 0.13 out of every 100,000 people in the United States have the family name Arciaga
• 7.52% are White
• 0% are Black
• 8.08% are Hispanic (any)
• 80.22% are Asian / Pacific Islander
• 0% are American Indian / Native American
• 4.18% are Two or More

Ahehe..o di ba..more asian talaga ang aming nale..=)

Next naman ang aking family name nung dalaga pa ako..hihi..SULIT

Statistics for Sulit:

Sulit is the 56826th most common family name in the United States

Sulit occurs 336 times in the most recent US Census (2000)

0.12 out of every 100,000

people in the United States have the family name Sulit

5.95% are White

0%

are Black

4.76%

are Hispanic (any)

86.31%

are Asian / Pacific Islander

0%

are American Indian / Native American

2.38%

are Two or More

At ang apelyido ko ngayon CACANANTA..di masyadong kilala..ibig sabihin extinct ang lahi nina gary..ahaha..

next naman ang aking namesung..NINA

Origin: Native American

Meaning: Strong

At ang kay hubby popoy - GARY

Origin: English

Meaning: Carries a spear

at ayan na si bakekang..ala pa ding magawa sa life..ahehe..kayo naman!

Gaya Gaya Puto Maya

Dahil sa walang maipost..katamaran magwento ng buhay buhay. Nanggaya si Bakekang sa isa niyang kumare..ahehe..si mareng moninay..thanks for the link mare.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

~> uy..straightforward!!! hanu yun? problem solver..kaya pala ang daming problema..haha..listen to both sides..kaya minsan nasabihan akong balimbing...waaah!

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

~> Tanong ng bayan: Si Popoy, gwapo? Sagot ni Bakekang: MABAIT!!!!!! haha..Gary is the most beautiful person I have ever met..naks!

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

~> Ayan! nagpadalos dalos..ahehe..but I am all blessed meeting MR. RIGHT? Am i right?

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

~> Uy! Head over heals..serious daw ako..oo naman..

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

~> Ano ba dapat? Matalino o Madiskarte?

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

~> Ahehe..Office Girl. Need to go back to working mode..to have my own moolah!

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

~> Nothing! As in! Kahit sabihin pa ng Dean namin na di ako papasa ng board exam..carry lang..What bakekang wants..bakekang gets! Brat!

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

~> Di ko masyado naintindihan. Basta ayoko lang ng mag-isa. Takot ako sa mumu..ahaha..

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

~> First Sentence. Medyo lang. Second Sentence. Very True. (Ask Popoy and friends)

Kayo naman..know yourself.

Bluskies

Last night, when Popoy and I are about to sleep, we had this small conversation. Popoy sometimes do this story telling about his office life for me. Feeling like a child (again!), I listen carefully to him.

The story is about his boss and his immediate staff (not gary). During break time they had an argument (a friendly one). They were talking about why does the climate change. Very interesting right? The boss says it is because of the Earth's tilted position. The staff disagrees and stated another one. Breaktime ends and still the two argues about it. The discussion continues during lunch break. Knowing the boss, he refuses to be on the losing side. They had a bet on whoever wins the discussion. What is the price? A cup of coffee. Hehehe. They search over the net to get the right facts. The discussion continues, and another topic was brought. The boss ask another question, why does the sky is blue? Very relevant to their positions?!!? (They are Engineers on a semicon company..haha!) His staff, of course, would state what he knows. He said it is because of the ocean's color reflection. The boss (again) disagrees. So to make the long story short, the other staff around them who listen to their discussion got bored. And that includes my dear Popoy.

And since what they are talking about is regarding the color blue, Popoy popped the question, and why does the BLUSKIES' (the biscuit itself) color is not blue?

The team asked and wondered, WHY?!? (with annoyance!)

Popoy said because it is misspelled. BLU lacks the letter "E".

The people around was not amazed. Hehe. and asked another question, SO?!?!? (I can imagine their facial reaction, Popoy is a very good story teller!)

Popoy explained once again, it lacks the letter "E"

because it lacks Engredient!!!!

And everyone laughed their hearts out with Popoy's hirit.

Haha..I was giggling with his story (no laughing coz gab is sleeping). Popoy made the boring discussion ended. And he makes himself, once again a star. Nye! He ends my day happy too!

Kuk-oh!

It took four months before I got a decent (decent na ba yan?!?) ahehe..pedicure!

And when I look at my feet. I was saying to myself. "Ang cute ng toes ko!" Very cute cause it so so small and almost of the same size. Haha.

~ Thank God Cute Normal Feet ~

Dadut's 56th Birthday

Yep. My Daddy is now 30 years older than me. Yay! Daduts..our term of endearment for

RICARDO BASBAS SULIT

I know (and feel) that at this point in time, that he is alone (that is without a partner, my nanay). He really have that certain feeling of being alone and lonely. Not that we aren't there to be with him but he feels that at a point in time. We will leave him.

After having this thought. I felt. That somehow, that dream of mine (and his!) working down under is really not meant to happen for now. Because there is a need for me to be with Daddy. My dad is a person who refuses to be termed emotional. But he is. When my younger sister Joy called him, he said unknowingly (because he is already drunk..hehe!) "Kapag kinasal ka..dito ka sa akin titira ha. Kasi kapag umalis na ang mga ate mo (ako yun) wala na akong kasama." And that is the reason, even he yells me at times, hehe..and super toyo to the max, I cannot leave him. Because I really do not want him to feel that he is left out.

Thank God for Gab, he is now the one of the source of his hapiness.

And amidst all the palo, sermon, at strictness to the max..I am thankful for having him as MY Father. We will not be able to reach this status without his disciplined way of raising his kids. I know that we never vocally say that we love each other. Daddy, you know that I am proud of you and how you were able to conquer loneliness. Nanay must be so happy seeing you smile like this...ahehehe.

Happy Birthday Daduts!

Current Dilemna: To stay or not to stay

Dahil sa kakapilit ko kay popoy na alagaan ko muna si kulas..dito ako sa bahay ngayon at ineenjoy mabuti ang pagiging nanay...

pero as time goes by..naks! nararamdaman ko na ang need..

need to earn more money to save for our future..for kulas' future..

di ko alam if tama si daddy na dapat ba talaga kong magwork..

i'm torn between

staying at home with kulas

to personally take care of him..wherein admittedly..im enjoying so much. With that, i am looking for the best work at home job. Currently, I am working as a part-time Accountant of Lyokze Technologies Trading (I-advertise ba ang company). Offering some made to order invites (Thanks Edsel!). Selling some bags and apparels at our store (Hehe) and Mastering the art of Digital Layouting. (Baka may mga pictures kayo staying so much in you hard drives you may keep me busy while earning some bucks..hehe). Dami kong naiisip na business, pero do not have the money to start with it. (Calling Kuya and Joy!!! Hahaha)

Or not to stay at home with kulas...

That means..working at a company!!!

The advantageous thing about it is that I am going to earn money on a regular basis. Twice a month the least. Magkaroon ng sariling pera. I can get to buy Baby Gabriel things I cannot afford now. I am not comfortable spending Popoy's money. Nakakahiya kasi. Hehe..pero syempre, I have doubts. With whom shall I entrust Kulas? Parang di ko kaya ipagkatiwala siya sa iba eh. Hehe. I shall miss (a little maybe) the opportunity of taking care of him kasi baka maging busy ako sa work. (You know naman accounting..boring..ahaha..toxic na work!) Kasi nga minsan lang maging baby si Kulas. Darating ang time, I may not be able to see him much. Kasi he will go to school na.

Pero..up until when shall I be at home? Hay..that is something I really cannot tell. Sa ngayon, I enjoy every moment we have ni Kulas. But I know in time, I need to work again. Kasi si Popoy. Nagsabi sa akin. Di daw talaga niya kaya. Pero pumayag siya sa kagustuhan ko na mag-stay at home muna. Bait no? Kaya ako, tiis lang.

Ano kaya? Kelan kaya ako dapat magwork ulit? may advice ka ba? Ano bang magandang plano? Hmmmm..

Thoughts of YOU

I know that at this point in time, even though we are only inches apart, you never know how happy you are making me. With all that we have been through, ever since you are still in me. There are so many things that you changed in me. You are the inspiration that made my life more exciting as well as challenging. Never did I realized, that you will bring such an enormous feeling deep within me. Something that is indescribable. Just looking at you as you sleep so calmly and making some weird faces completes my day ahead. How much more when that little eyes of yours slowly opens the day with a smile? A smile that has captured everybody’s heart in our humble abode. You make so many things that bind us all together. These small things which really matters, such as how you make that little face looks like a crumpled paper when you are about to explode that very loud sound. Haha! A sound that when heard by all of us, fill the house with laughter. I really love every thing that you do.

The way you react with every sound you hear…

The way you smile at me when we talk…

The way you make different sounds…

And on how you embrace me unknowingly…

That every time I am away, I know that you are looking for mommy’s cuddle…

On how excited you are when you are about to feed on me…

Your little gestures my angel has brought big changes in my life.

These are changes that I wished for…and it was granted.

You truly are such a blessing!!! I will never stop thanking God for bringing you into our lives…May we make the most of every moment we have together as you grow to be a good man. May we, (together with Daddy Popoy) be able to guide you as become the person God has intended you to be.

We love you baby…

First Time Mommy =)

What is a mother? It is a woman who conceives, gives birth to, or raises and nurtures a child.

But we all know..that a mom is beyond that..

During my pregnancy, I am a bit hesitant about how will I be able to take care of my little unborn? I was confused knowing that I do not have my nanay around to teach me things. Those things that a first time mommy like me needs.

Di ko talaga alam kung papaano maalagaan ang batang ilalabas ko. But like Nanay, whom I know is watching me all the time up above, I need to be strong for my little precious.

When baby came, I am overwhelmed with the resposibilities. I am alone. It is not that Popoy is unsupportive. I am very thankful to have the man who helped me be a fulfilled woman.. =) But it is that as a mother, I need to take care of my little one. I have to feed him at anytime he demands. (I am targeting full breastfeeding up until I can). I have to change his diapers, clean his pupus, bathe him, all of it, without the help of mom.

And I miss her once again.

At times, it made me cry, hoping that she is there when I need to have my questions be answered. Who will assist me and teach me on how can I take good care of my angel. Reality strikes that I have to strive working on my own. That I have to master the art of MOTHERHOOD.

Sa kabila naman ng lahatng paghihirap, pagtatanong, pangungulila at kung ano anong emosyon..may pahina na naman na nadagdag sa buhay ni bakekang. Isang pahina na babalik balikan. Lilipat man ito sa susunod na kabanata..masaya akong maipagmamalaki na kakayanin ko at kinaya ang mga pagsubok ng maging isang Ina. Oo. Matatag ako. Yan ang iniisip kong lagi. Sa lahat ng problemang dumating at maaring dumating sa amin ni Baby at Popoy.

At sa araw na inilaan para sa mga Ina. Isa na ako sa mga masasayang babae na nagkaroon ng panibagong dahilan upang mabuhay at mabuhay ng marangal at maayos. Sa araw na ito. Nagpapasalamat din ako sa lahat ng babaeng naging bahagi ng paglago ko. Na nagsilbing Ina sa akin. May asawa man o wala. Lahat sila ay naging sandigan para magkaroon ng isang Bakekang na may tinatanaw na mga pangarap. Isang Bakekang na huhubog ng panibagong tao.

Kaya para sa iyo, GABRIEL NICHOLAS, salamat kay Lord sa pagdating mo sa buhay ko..mahal na mahal kita..

~ Bakekang ~

What Bakekang Means

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

~ Ninalyn ~

What Ninalyn Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

He Came!!!

"Just when I thought I was over you..

Just when I thought I can stand on my own..

Oh Baby..those mem'ries come crushing through.."

"Marriage is the only war wherein you sleep with your enemy. "

Yun na nga ang ginawa ko kay Popoy dahil wala akong magagawa kundi ang makatabi siya sa higaan the day before the wedding ni grasya. Ayun at ginamit ko na ang pinakatatago kong pangsangga para di na lang ako madismaya dahil kinabukasan..magisa akong maglalayag sa kalsada. Silence is one of the weapon I use when Popoy and I was into something not that good.

At take note.

The goody man my hubby is..

HE CAME!!!

Not at the time I arrived sa church, but nonetheless, he surprised me by coming over and giving up that event he needs to attend to. Alam kong negative yun sa kanyang record pero mas pinili pa din niya ako..

Weeeeh! Ang saya ko naman..Yun lang.

Happy, Sad, Whatever...

Ni revise ko lang yun homily ni Father sa Mass nina John last Wednesday. I am just having mixed emotions today.

Happy.

Coz today, another friend of mine will say "I do" to her boyfriend of more than 10 years. Whew! Bigatin di ba?

Sad.

I am attending the said event without Popoy.

Happy.

The reason why he cannot accompany me for the said "once in a lifetime event" of our dear friend is that he received "Silver Award" for a report he submitted to their mother company in Japan. Yehey! This will be held at Bellevue Hotel in Alabang. Tama ba ang spelling ko ng hotel na un?

Sad.

I have been asking him ever since we have known the exact date of the wedding and promised me that he will be there. And that only yesterday. He confirmed that he will not be able to attend.

I am hurted. For a fact that when his boss, asked him to choose between being with me to go to the wedding and attending the said award's night. HE CHOOSES TO ATTEND THE AWARD'S NIGHT. He kept on saying "Sorry". Ala daw siyang magagawa. I cannot determine if I am just being childish and stubborn. Insisting to myself that I should be the one to be chosen. I do not want to limit his decision but in my heart, I still feel the need to be taken cared of..especially that I am on my 37th week. Whew! Call me inconsiderate, but this did not happen only once. It happened many times. Choosing between staying with workmates or fetching/accompanying me. Hay...I had no doubt if He really loves me or not. But It is that kind of importance I need to feel.

But then again, for the benefit of my BABY NHOJ, who is bound to fill my lonely day with laughters and is cheering me up by making some groovy moves inside my big tummy. I shall post this pic of mine as I celebrate my 26th year here on earth. Yipee!

Maybe. Just Maybe. Tomorrow will be a "Happy Mode" day since there will be a double celebration as I bid bye bye to my wonderful 25th year and Little Johnny as he graduates Grades School and enters High School.

But whatever happens, it is still us that decides on how we shall deal with negative emotions, and that is turning this bad chi into a good one.

That is Power Thinking! Have a great weekend everyone!

Samu't Saring Kwento

Hay..I am in the office right now..eto at emote mode ako ngayon. in days..I will be adding another year in my age..hmmm..isang taon na naman ang lumipas and it have been a very wonderful silver year of my life.

Ang daming nangyari sa nagdaang taon..di ko akalain na ganon kabilis ang mga pangyayari at eto..isa na akong expectant mom at the age of 25. Not too young nor too old to start my new career in motherhood. I must admit that before, upon knowing of the existence of this little angel of mine, medyo hesitant ako if I am really am able to be a good mom to my child and my future children. Dun din ako nakaisip if I am ready to be Popoy's wife na tlaga. Pero all in all, masaya ako ngayon to whatever state I am now. Maraming advantages akong nararanasan to be called MRS. GARY CACANANTA. Sa dami nun, this post might be a boring one to enumerate. Siguro kapag nagkaroon na ulit ako ng inspirasyon to list all of it. Pero I know that I am truly blessed being given this great gifts: My Hubby and My Baby.

Sa nagdaang taon, I was able to prove that I am capable of working ang competing abroad. Yun nga lang..maybe God wants me to be in another situation. Maybe not now that I am having another responsibility to my baby and honey. Having this, mas nakafocus ako to the years ahead. Not like when I am still single, kesehodang alang ipon, basta magpakasaya. Tsaka ngayon, “we” are planning definite plans. Di na un tipong “bahala na si batman”. Madami na kaming inaayos. Madami na din pangarap na in my humble opinion, we have accomplished early. At this age namin ni Popoy, although, madami pa kaming lalakbayin, masaya kasi nakapagsimula na kami. Baby steps as it may seems, I am cherishing those steps, steps that are very crucial to a new marriage. And I believe that we are tracking the right path. Eto na nga at nagwento na ako.

Sige na nga.

Being a wife of Popoy, it was really a blessing. Sobra. It is not that I usually win over whatever whims I have at the moment. Pero most of the time, I win it! Nyehehe! I am being pampered so much that I may miss this when baby nhoj comes. Nagselos na agad? Ahaha.. Alam naman ng lahat, how kind my hubby is. How he values family over other things. And although, we are not yet blessed sa church kasi we had our civil wedding only, I am happy na we are able to go to church regularly. We are starting it right..I know and I believe. It was HIS plan to place me/us in this situation. One of the things I wished for and was granted!!! Yehey! I know I am not that good (super mabait) to deserve such blessings! But ganon talaga..paborito ako ni Lord eh!

And being a paborito, syempre, di maiiwasan ang sandamakmak na pagsubok. It is during this time, na ang dami kong naiisip. Dami kong gustong gawin. Pero everything should be well planned na..kasi we have another human being to consider. And that is our little baby. I am feeling more mature on my decisions and actions. I think over things many times before I decide to dig into it. As in. Sobrang negosyante na ang lola mo, kasi di ko basta isasabak ang lahat para sa isang maling desisyon pa. Pero I know in time, I will commit many. Then Learn from it. It was that naman di ba?

And this journey shall continue..Bakekang will still be on the go!!!! Woohoo!

At yan na nga..bumibilang na tayo..

I am on my 33^rd week of pregnancy. It is fun being in this kind of condition kasi everyone calls you “buntis”. Most of the people you see around are nice to you. There is a special attention being given to you especially at this stage na obvious na ang aking tiyan. Little Nhoj (ang tawag ko sa kanya up until he comes into this world) is getting bigger na din. He occupies most of the space in my tummy. Pero kahit ano pa man..lamon pa din. Hehe. But I am not a “Pasawife”naman. I regularly drink my vitamins and kahit papaano eh iwas din sa bawal.

Naku, mahaba na itong kwento ko. Bak to work na ulit ako.

Until next time! Tata!

And he kissed me "Good Night!"

And he kissed me good night!

Naks..english ang title ng post ko na ito pero tagalog kong iwewento ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit kaya ko pa rin ngumiti sa kabila ng lahat.

Nahihirapan ako sa panahon na ito, syempre dala na rin ng lumalaki kong tiyan eh, kasabay na ang iba’t ibang emosyon na pumapalaot sa makitid kong utak. Pero sa bawat pagtitiis kong ito, may napakagandang kapalit.

Di ko sinasabi ako na ang pinakasawi sa lahat ng nangangarap. Hello lang, saan ka pa na kahit may asawa ka na eh, ang butihing mong ama pa din ang gigising sa umaga at ipagluluto ang bunso mong kapatid ng baon, syempre kasabay nun ang paghahanda sa pagkain namin ni Popoy dear. Pero, di din naman lahat ng dinaranas ko eh nakakatuwa. Pag-kaalis ni Popoy kasabay ang aking makulit na kapatid (hehe). Dun na magsisimula ang paglalayag ng utak ko. Isa na dun ang isipin na ilang oras akong matatali sa gitna ng dagat ng walang kasama. Dun ko pupunuin ang utak ko ng kung ano ano..

At ang mga ito ay ang mga sumusunod.

~> mahirap ang walang datung na inaasahan. Jobless kasi ako eh. Donation naman dyan! (wehehe!!!)

~> nasasayang ang oras ko pero pinipilit kong gumawa ng kabutihan.

~> uy! Positive naman..gagawa ako ng mga gagamitin ng anak naming ni Popoy. (meron na akong pillowcases na blue..tinahi ko yun!)

~> babalik sa sayang at di na kami sabay pumasok ni popoy sa work.

~> magbabasa kunwari. Magcheck ng email. Magapply kung may papatol. Magfriendster at magmultiply.

~> at marami pang iba.

Dun, totoyoin ako sa gitna ng dagat at bago pa man magkagat dilim, magsisimula akong bumalik sa baybay dagat para mag-handa sa pagbabalik ni Popoy. Maiirita dahil paulit-ulit na lang ang ginagawa. Laba. Luto. Kain. Kain. Kain. Wehehe. Linis. Laba. Luto.

Hehe..

So anong masaya sa buhay ko na super boring?

Syempre, nung dumating na si Popoy, ipaghahain ko na siya ng paborito niyang pinakbet.wehehe. na noon ko lang naman niluto. Ordinaryong araw lang yun. PAgkatapos, naghugas ako ng pinggan, nag-ayos ng higaan habang si Popoy abalang naglilinis ng katawan. Uy! Bango niya..

At tumabi na siya sa akin..yun na! Kiss na niya ako sa noo (Uy! Lola?!?) At biglang nag-thank you! Ang sarap naman..kahit pagod na ako sa maghapon ditto sa bahay..eh..may premyo pala ang lahat. At mahimbing na natulog si Bakekang habang hinihimas ang bilog niyang..tiyan! Haha..

Ayun. Masaya na ulit ako.

On Pregnancy

This post should have been posted during the times when I am really down with regards to my condition.

Dahil normal sa babae ang mabuntis..inamin na ni J.Lo at Christina Aguilera ang lahat..kahit si Jennylyn Mercado umamin na din..I decided to post na din ang entry na ito.

This has been the first post I will ever have regarding the status of my new life. There have been so many things that fill my day the past few months. I kept it all inside me and hide the fact there is a problem that burdens me and it has been the most difficult challenge that I ever faced. Although, many people had gone through this scenario, I must admit that you will never can tell how scary being on it until you are at it. Never did I imagine that I will be one of those people, we commented so much.

I am guilty of being so in love with a man whom I know that truly is God-given.

But that will never justify whatever it is that we are currently having. A trouble I guess at first, because I looked at it before as a fault. It is a terrible mistake of a seemingly perfect relationship. That is something which should not be done nor thought of doing. But that was it. I am guilty of the so called early pregnancy. Although I must say that the man whom I share the love for our unborn baby is the perfect guy for me, the situation is uncalled for.

There were so many nights that I cried to sleep. Thinking over what we have done. What could have gone wrong? Did I trust that easy or give in so fast that God has planned this so that we could learn our lessons well. I have read in the best selling book Purpose Driven Life, that every child is planned by God. No matter what the situation is. That my little angel was already in God’s plan.

It was very hard for me to accept all those things. Those are the things that I will be sacrificing when this happened. It is because my child will come into the world soon! At this point of time, I had gone over the fault finding, the heartbreaks, the self pity and all those negative emotions that I felt. It was this situation that made me stronger. I thanked my mom (although she is no longer here with us) for all those advices and inspirations I always kept in mind that somehow I know God has already prepared me going through this situation.

Well. The most depressing part of this is breaking the news to my Dad. I admire and love him so much that I truly know that I have made a mistake that will disappoint him. I was arguing with Popoy when he will have the guts to tell my dad about it. Yes, he is the man! Who else?!? Until I find the right strategy, surfing over the internet to pick some suggestions from the people who share the same situation. The Letter Strategy is the most convincing advice I picked. Then, I told Popoy about my plan. He agreed. He must agree! He he!

The plan had gone as expected. As any Dad would ever felt that her little daughter will soon be taken by the man he trusted so well, it was his initial reaction that made my soon to be more scared of him. Although, I admit that I expect some people to react negatively, I was a bit disappointed with some whom I felt that will support me the most in this dilemma I am going through are the ones who almost turned their back on me. I neither blame them for their reaction nor accept their opinion. I may say that I am too stubborn to feel what they feel. I am selfish, thinking about how to solve this problem when in fact even before there are lot of things that we still need to figure out together to solve. But everything has already changed. My perspective in life has turned around from being a happy go lucky girl to being responsible woman looking forward to building a family that will correct all those wrong things done before.

Now, I can accept all the name callings being tagged over me. Although, I admit that I am a strong woman, carefully molded by my humble experience from the past 25 years, I still feel the hurt. I just know that I needed to be strong even if I can’t, I just have to be. For my baby and my future family.

I have to start moving on. Even some people around still cannot. I just have this one request from you who is reading this. Please pray for me, my baby, my husband, and my loved ones. May all wounds heal that were created by this mistake. Amen.