First Time Mommy =)

What is a mother? It is a woman who conceives, gives birth to, or raises and nurtures a child.

But we all know..that a mom is beyond that..

During my pregnancy, I am a bit hesitant about how will I be able to take care of my little unborn? I was confused knowing that I do not have my nanay around to teach me things. Those things that a first time mommy like me needs.

Di ko talaga alam kung papaano maalagaan ang batang ilalabas ko. But like Nanay, whom I know is watching me all the time up above, I need to be strong for my little precious.

When baby came, I am overwhelmed with the resposibilities. I am alone. It is not that Popoy is unsupportive. I am very thankful to have the man who helped me be a fulfilled woman.. =) But it is that as a mother, I need to take care of my little one. I have to feed him at anytime he demands. (I am targeting full breastfeeding up until I can). I have to change his diapers, clean his pupus, bathe him, all of it, without the help of mom.

And I miss her once again.

At times, it made me cry, hoping that she is there when I need to have my questions be answered. Who will assist me and teach me on how can I take good care of my angel. Reality strikes that I have to strive working on my own. That I have to master the art of MOTHERHOOD.

Sa kabila naman ng lahatng paghihirap, pagtatanong, pangungulila at kung ano anong emosyon..may pahina na naman na nadagdag sa buhay ni bakekang. Isang pahina na babalik balikan. Lilipat man ito sa susunod na kabanata..masaya akong maipagmamalaki na kakayanin ko at kinaya ang mga pagsubok ng maging isang Ina. Oo. Matatag ako. Yan ang iniisip kong lagi. Sa lahat ng problemang dumating at maaring dumating sa amin ni Baby at Popoy.

At sa araw na inilaan para sa mga Ina. Isa na ako sa mga masasayang babae na nagkaroon ng panibagong dahilan upang mabuhay at mabuhay ng marangal at maayos. Sa araw na ito. Nagpapasalamat din ako sa lahat ng babaeng naging bahagi ng paglago ko. Na nagsilbing Ina sa akin. May asawa man o wala. Lahat sila ay naging sandigan para magkaroon ng isang Bakekang na may tinatanaw na mga pangarap. Isang Bakekang na huhubog ng panibagong tao.

Kaya para sa iyo, GABRIEL NICHOLAS, salamat kay Lord sa pagdating mo sa buhay ko..mahal na mahal kita..