Blame it on Us

And what we did was wrong...

So blame it all on us...

We will accept it wholeheartedly...

Sorry...

13th month: a PAY not a bonus!

hehe..upon browsing the net..i came to read a conversation regarding the 13th month being considered by many filipinos as bonus..la lang..ako din kasi ganon ang pananaw sa 13th month.

Lemme share this with you..

"Thursday, January 11th, 2007 in For Sharing

Why there is a 13-month bonus when it is really isn’t a bonus?

The mystery is finally revealed! When the British were in Singapore, they were being paid weekly & they argued that Singaporeans were actually being cheated into believing that the 13th month pay is a bonus. Singaporeans are being paid monthly which is equivalent to 4 weeks pay coz there are 4 weeks in a month.

As the British were paid weekly, it worked out to the same. You see, there are 7 days in a week. 4 weeks in a month. 12 months in a year. Then 12 months should work out to 48 weeks only. But 1 year actually has 52 weeks!!! Hence the 13th month is your own pay not bonus??!!). So, the British argued that there is in fact no bonus at all??? It is a very simple calculation that stunned many!!!!"

Ilan taon na din akong nedenggoy nun ah..wahaha..buti na lang di na ako nag work at di na din aasa sa 13th month pay..wehehe..so sa mga nagiintay ng 13th month pay nila..good luck!

Nalulungkot ako...

Hating gabi na..di pa din ako makatulog...

Nakakalungkot kasi..

Di ko masabi..

Di ko makaya..

Hanggang kelan? Hay..

Sana bukas pag gising ko..kayanin ko na..

Happy Birthday Monina!

weeeeeeeh! o di ba tumanda ka na naman ng isang taon..salamat sa walang sawang suporta!

This woman has been the one of the strongest person I met! (Libre naman dyan!)
Wishing you all the best life can offer! Labs yun fwend!

Updates to the Land Down Under

It has been more than 2 months that I had tendered my resignation (but glad about it!) but there is no sign of the visa coming anytime. Good Thing that cyber is here and I am able to fill in my free (super mega over free!) time. Hahaha..the wait has been the very draining moment of every visa applicant as they may say. But I choose not to fall for that. But for more than 2 months of being a bum? Naku..talaga palang nakakadrain ang pag-iintay. Yun nga at mahigit isang buwan na din yun "wishing you all the best" ng aking mga amigo at amiga! hehe..I have no choice but to wait.

So for all those pipol who are much excited with me going abroad..naku, mahaba habang kwentuhan pa yata ito..pero I am not losing the hope that October will be my month! Woohoo!

Come in October blessings!

Happy on Mistakes

We all make mistakes..

Sometimes?!?

Most of the Times?!?

Yah, I have been absent in cyber writing because i felt empty. I am so lost for words that I cannot describe the feeling that I am experiencing right now. We all plan for good things for our future.

All the positive ones.

That is the sad fact about it.

That when bad (or not so bad) things happen, we are left in the middle of nowhere. Parang binagsakan ka ng isang truck ng yelo at pinatay lahat ng cells mo para wala kang maramdaman na kahit ano.

This is what I felt when a not so good thing happens.

But as 25-year old girl (or lady), I should know the consequences of my mistakes. Di na pde pang baguhin ang lahat kasi nga nagawa na. And as I am going to this tough stage in my life where I am bound to experience the next level. I am able to think of the brighter side of every mistake. During my college days, na super dami ng mali kong ginawa. I know that each and every event that happened are connected to our future and it has its reasons. Carefully molding our individual personality. I believe that I am a strong person because of that. And continously, religiously believed that I am. That is something I can boast about. But God will always put your faith on fire. He makes kulit often. Pero syempre, Koino ako (clap for being one!) I can stand through it. Nakakakita pa rin ako ng liwanag sa kabila ng bawat ulan, kulog at kidlat na dumating. Milenyo man maituring ang isang problema. Magagawan pa yan ng paraan.

And as I am about to go through that next journey, wow! I cannot believe that I am. Smile on my face. It is indeed a great blessing that I am still here standing amidst this problem (now, I consider this as small one) and holding the hand of the God-given-but-not-prayed-for (wahaha!) person that is Popoy (a.k.a. Gary Guiang Cacananta)

Tonight, he will make the most terrifying, nerve-wracking, super-trilling thing of his entire life (haha! hope he feels the last one there). So I am asking for all of your prayers for him to have the guts he never had for the nth attempts in the past weeks.

I am excited and nervous at the same time!

Prayerful Nina on a Tuesday Afternoon..Saint Anthony pray for us!

Siyudad Engrande Adbetyurs

Medyo matagal na din akong di nakapag update. Hmmmm..kasi medyo disappointed ako to what my visa application process been going. More than 2 months na kasi and still my ticket to the Land Down Under is still blurry.

Pero amidst that..madami din naman nangyari after the suprise party.

Isa sa ito ang maaksyon at malatelenobelang wento last September 2. =) Happy reading!!!

After a week, may celebration naman sa bahay..that is my Dadut's 55th birthday. Mega handa kami kasi biro mo dati 4 kaming girls na magluluto at mag-aayos ng bahay..ngayon 2 na lang..waaaaah! At dahil super galing kong magluto..wehehe..eh..hanggang gayat lang ako at tagasalin ng mga ingredients sa kawali..ang taste test kay daduts.

Aga pa lang nun..busy na kami kasi lunch ang dating ng sangkatutak kong mga kamag-anak (from daddy's side). Nakakatuwa naman kasi masaya. Kantahan sila sa videoke (c/o Tiyo Rico) habang ako busy sa pag-aayos. Good Thing my ever reliable Popoy was there with me to help me. Ayun. Nakaraos ang maghapon. Taob ang 3 lalagyan ng ulam. Ang Kanin meron unti tas puto at sopas..ubos din..Samakatuwid. It was such a blast. Nasa sobrang pagod..dinugo ako. Wahaha!

Pag alis ng mga tao..kantahan kami nina jil, john, at gary. Habang si Daduts, busy sa pagbubukas ng kanyang balikbayan package courtesy of my sissy joy in singapore. O di ba? International na kami..while si Kuya nasa Dubai.

Ayun na nga..at ito ang isang pangyayari sa araw na iyon na di ko makakalimutan eber in may layp. As in. Lintik lang ang tindi ng amnesia ko kapag nakalimutan ko ito. Maaksyon masyado ito at baka hingalin kayo. Hahaha! Actually wala ako sa scene ng may biglang bumato sa bubong ng bahay naman (Aba! at mukhang di nagandahan sa mala adarna kong boses!) Nandun kasi ako sa banyo..kasalukuyan naliligo (Pasma na itu after a beri fagod day!) Ayun. At matapang kong sissy at daduts lumabas. The next thing. Lumapit na mga lasing na bisita ng aming NAPAKABAIT NA KAPITBAHAY!!! Well, sabi ko nga second hand info na lang ang mga ito dahil wala ako sa scene. Ang alam ko lang nagkaroon ng komosyon. At ang dugo ni Gabriela ay sumapi sa kapatid ko pati na rin si Diego kay Daduts. Samakatuwid. May nangyaring pagtatalo. At ang aking medyo oldy pero super lakas na daduts may hawak na. (di ko nasabihin dito kasi may issue pa eh). Dumating ang isang atribidang junior mangkok. (Wahaha..) Basta isa siya sa anak ng aming NAPAKABAIT NA KAPITBAHAY. Ayun na nga. Me paeksena na si jr.mangkok. Sigawan yata sila dun. Di ko talaga alam ang detalya. Pero in the end, lahat ay kumalma.

Tapos na.

Kantahan ulit kami. Nanginginig ang laman ko. Ewan ko ba. Ang saya saya kasi ng maghapon eh. Tas may biglang eksenang ganon!

At biglang may dumating na pulis patola. At dala ang kanilang armalite! Huwat? Hanu itu! Biglang nagtransform sa isang soap opera ang lahat! Usap usap. Imbitado si Daduts sa Prisinto. Sige. Mega sama ako at ang aking butihing popoy. Buti at nandun pa din sya. Hay. (Medyo segwey heywey..sarap talaga ng nandyan ka popoy!!!! )

Dun sa prisinto, di mapakaling manok itong si jr.mangkok. Hmp! Wala akong sama ng loob dito sa aming NAPAKABAIT NA KAPITBAHAY. Ang super pinagtataka ko lang bakit mega over imbyerna siya sa pamilya ko. Hayun. Blotter ang lola mo. Natatakot siguro sa kapayat niyang katawan patulan siya ng daduts ko. Usap sila ng imbestigador. Wait kami sa labas. Daduts ko naman. So in the end, the investigation officer has come into a conclusion na di ito nagmumula sa simpleng paghawak ng daduts ko ng bagay na yun. Isa itong matagal na alitan at INGGITAN ng magkapitbahay. Hay. Lumabas din ang totoo. Grave threat ang isasampa sa tatay ko! Hanu ba yan! Ilan kaya sila compare sa tatay ko. Kung pede lang bigyan ng matinding batok ang mga uto-utong bisita ng MANGKOK family.

Ayun. Nagusap sila ng daduts. Dahil si dady ang may kaso. Nagpakumbaba sya. IM SUPER PROUD OF HIM. With his personality, di ko expect na gagawin niya yun lalo na sa mga mangkok na yun. Hahaha. At dumating ang kapatid ko. Kinausap ng intrimitidang jr.mangkok. Naku..kung nandun lang kayo sa scene. Mapuputol nyo talaga ang dila sa talas ng mga sinasabi. Anyway. Sa lahat ng wento dahil di na din naman ako nakinig sa walang kwentang grudges nitong si payatitot na mangkok, sa linyang ito ako natuwa. "Kuya mo? Sa iyo na ang kuya mo!!!!!!" huwat? Anong kinalaman ng aking professional na kuya na ubod ng gwapo sa eksenang ito???? At hanggang ngayon, nasa puso mo pa din ang panghihinayang na di ka niligawan ng tuluyan ng kuya ko???? Just reading between the lines. Hahaha! Sabi ko na nga ba eh. May hinanakit siya sa aking super bro na miles apart na and years na ang lumipas sa kanila. Tawa na lang ako. Kaya pala.

So after na usapan. Magdamag kaming nandun sa prisinto. Para ayusin yun isang kaso.

Di pa dun natapos. Kinausap pa din ni dady si Tatay nila. Bumalik kami kasi resched daw. Nandun kami ng 7pm sa prisinto. Di ko alam wat araw na yun. Humahangos sila pagdating. Hahaha...galit na galit si tatay nila. Bakit kaya? Di din namin alam eh. Tas ng magwento na ang mangkok. Aba ang target daw pala ng dady ay ang tatay! Haha! Tawa na lang ako. Bakit? Siya ba ang nambato? Nandun ba siya sa eksena? Pero dahil sa kagustuhan na din namin na matapos na ang lahat. Humingi na ng paumanhin si daduts. Eto pa. Ang sabi ng mag-inang mangkok, si tatay daw talaga ang ayaw pumayag na iatras ang kaso. Tas nun ok na si tatay. Ang sabi ng mag-inang mangkok, pag-isipan mong mabuti. Kakatawa na lang. Tatay pala ang ayaw pumayag ha..tas ng ok na..ngarag silang sabihin pag-isipan pa ulit. Wahaha talaga! Talagang tatatak ito sa istorya ng buhay ko. Comedy eh! Samakatuwid ok na ang lahat. Ang next step na lang ay kung paano iiwasan ang pagprovoke ng mangkok family (di naman sila lahat!)

Aalis ba kami o patuloy silang maiinggit? Wahaha..Bahala na si Lord.

Sana lang wag ng maulit. Lalo na at may i go out of the country na ako (sana!!!)

Yun ibang events, next time na lang ulit! Tata!

Be Patient everyone!

My Surprise Party

Dito na magsisimula ang masayang moment…(^_^)

After nun, hatid na ako ni popoy sa amin, sabi niya daan muna kami kina anton kasi kukunin niya ang copy ng thesis niya. Ewan ko ba dahil sa tinagal tagal naman di ko naisip na bakit ngaun lang niya naisipan kunin. Galing din naman gumawa ng reason ni gary eh. Alam kasi niya na maniniwala ako. Hmp! Then, nagpaload sya. Di naman pumasok. Hehe. Sabi ko gamitin niya CP ko. Ewan ko ba at di ko pa din naisip na bakit need niya magtext sa CP niya eh, nakaplan naman ako. Ayun. Syempre, the sleepyhead lie on his lap while he texted.

Wala pa din idea si bakekang. Nun nakasakay na kami papunta bayan, ibinaba niya ulit ulo ko sa lap niya. Di naman ulit ako nagtaka..Ewan ko ba? Manhid lang talaga ako.

After, lakad kami sa subdivision ni anton. Nun nasa may gate na kami..nakatalikod si anton. Sbi ko pa. Mukhang may party pa sa kanila ah kasi may videoke. Tinutulak ako ni popoy. Sabi niya ayun o..tatay ni anton..eh si anton na pala yun. Wahaha. Kulit. Nakasara ng unti ang pinto. Tas pagpasok namin.

Surprise!

Ayun sila. May bros and sissies. Di kumpleto pero okay naman kasi nandun si Teta. Bestfriend ko. Masaya na ako. Di kasi kami masyado naguusap. Tagal na din.

Tulala pa din ako. Speechless. Tas kainan. Tulala pa din. Hehe..Si mulan ang may pakana ng lahat (Whew! See what my koino family has done, we had a very serious fight before and yet we stayed good friends).

Undefinable. So Magical.

We had toast for my quest to Land Down Under. (kahit wala pa visa ko)

Tas kantahan. Kami mga girls. Missed the old days. Akyat kami sa Room. Had our girls talk. I missed my gurlfwends. And I really wanna have that kind of chikahan before I leave.

Mga boys? Meron din. Inuman. Nalasing nga si gary, di ko pa yun nakitang nalasing. Ang daldal eh. Depressed malamang. Di pa kasi naming talaga napag-uusapan pano ba ang set-up (medyo sad part itu!)

To end the day/night/day ulit?!? Kasi till dawn eh..all I can say is that I am ready for my journey kasi I know that many pipol believed in my ability to make this successfully.

To all those that has been part of the Surprise Despidida..thank you po..sobrang nakakatouch talaga…Sana makasunod kayo no? Para dun tayo lahat. Hehe. Wish.

So I am definitely leaving..hay..nervous and excited again at the same time. That same old feeling.

A great Sunday indeed!!!

Late Sunday Kwento

Sunday was a great day..and so great that I was not able to post the story right after. Medyo may aftershock pa ako sa surprise ng aking pinakamamahal na koinonia. Since that was the first time that my fellow bros and sissies did to me, super nakakatuwa ang feeling.

Just to gave you a peek of what a great Sunday it was..

Umaga pa lang..puro kakulitan na ako…hehe…dahil excited akong makita si gary after a week of not seeing each other (weekly lang naman kasi kami magkita), ang aga-aga kong umalis sa bahay..in order to make it sa usapan namin na 9am. Tumawag ako using our super tipid Sun Cellular fone. At ayun, di pa daw siya naliligo. Hanuba yan..parang nawala bigla ang excitement ko. And the ever moody bakekang that is me, binabaan ko sya ng fone. O di ba? Tindi lang ng BF na makakatiis sa aking moods (and popoy has successfully did it for more than 4 years na! kasi siya lang naman naging bf ko ever). So ayun. Sa biyahe. Naghihimutok ang loob ko kasi nga nauna ako sa kanya. E ayoko ng pinagiintay ako. Wehehe. Pero sya pede magwait. Nun nafifil ko na mauuna siya sa akin, unti ng naglaylow ang emosyon ko. Syempre. Talo ako eh. Mas malapit naman kasi ang LB sa Letran. Nang magkita kami. Tulala siya. Ako. Nakataas ang kilay. Nun magHHWW na kami. Tumawa ako. At ayun. Hug niya ako at sabay pingot. Pinag-alala ko daw siya at nagmadali daw siya sa paliligo.

Wehehe. Kulit ko no? Kain kami sa Jobee sa kanto. Kita namin sina Kuya Riki at Toni parang may LQ, meron nga!!!! Hahaha..habang sila ay nagdramahan pa sa kabilang table kami ni popoy, tawanan lang kasi nga ang drama ko nun kausap ko sya sa fone. Ay! Binaba ko nga pala agad.

After nun, diretso kami sa Gym ng Letran. Attend ng sportsfest. Kwento sa mga members at alumni. Picture2x! Masaya. Pero not the one that we used to have. Malamang kasi nga oldies na ako. Hehe. Pero masaya pa din. Kausap ang bawat isa. No dull moments pa din.

Tawanan.

Kainan time. The traditional eating ceremony for applicants ito. Hehe. Ako, wala sa mood kasi gusto ko ng Tudings. Unti lang eat ko kasi wait ko ang tudings pag uwi.

Basketball. Laban alumni at members. Talo kami. Hehe. What would that mean? Syempre, pinagbigyan naming sila kasi naman tapos na kami sa efforts na yun. Wahaha..wat an excuse!

Interview. It is way a bit uplifting that still my organization has this uniqueness that “others” tried to copy but failed to do so. (issue na naman ito!!!) Haha. One thing I know, there is a magic, (that an applicant should not quit to experience that certain magic) that all of the inducted members felt. Masarap din kasi na mashare mo na ang magiging part ng pamilya kung ang experience mo kasi alam mong makakatulong yun sa kanya at magiging masaya siya sa magiging buhay niya for the next few years na Certified Koinonian na sya.

So after the full packed Day, we headed for Tudings. My moment. Hehe. But before that, punta kami bhaus kasama si kuya dexter. Usap sila. Tulog ako. Alis na kami. Eat sa tudings. Sarap. Hehe.

Sa Next post ang next event...

HOW TO CONTROL EMOTIONS (^_^)

This is a very good reminder for all of us.





This would give you guides on how to control your emotions towards your better-half, friends, officemates and all the people around you, especially your "boss".

The rules of practicing "ugaling langit, ugaling kaaya-aya"

#1 Ang naunang magalit ang may karapatang magalit. Pag naunahan ka na ng galit niya, tumahimik ka na lang muna.

#2 Walang taong nag-aaway mag-isa. Pag hindi kayo sumagot o pumatol, titigil din daw ang taong nakikipag- away sa inyo.

#3 Ang taong galit, 'bingi.' If someone is angry, wala raw pinakikinggan, so, don't try to explain and fight back. Hindi ka niya iintindihin dahil wala siyang naririnig kundi ang sarili nya.

#4 Ang taong galit, 'abnoy.' Ayon sa pastor, Biblical daw ito? because the Lord said when He was crucified, "Father, patawarin mo sila dahil hindi nila alam ang kanilang ginagawa." Modern term for these kinds of people are abnoys, so you better not get angry para huwag kang matawag na abnoy.

You should also know and realize that the persons who make your day bad are jewel, because you need them for you to mature. Hangga't andyan daw sila at kinaiinisan mo, ibig sabihin, immature ka pa. God will not take away those people; it's for you to take away your bad feelings towards them. You'll know na mature ka na pag dumating 'yung time na hindi ka na naiinis sa mga taong ito because you have learned to accept them and to have patience with them.

#5 Finally, the best part of this is to tell yourself na, because of this
person, "I will grow mature," and that...

DAHIL SA CONTRIBUTION NIYA SA MATURITY MO, KUKUNIN DIN SYA NI LORD.

Hope this help you a bit of making your day as positive as possible!

Have a great day ahead!!!

***galing sa isang forwarded email***

~ The End ~

Matagal na din akong walang updates, and I know I owe a lot of kwento to my few friends/passersby. Wehehe..actually, it is a combination of busy-ness and katamaran at the same time. Kasi last week was my last week in my work. Whew! I cannot help myself to be ngarag and excited coz I will be able to be out which I have been thinking for the longest time ever. Simula pa lang ng work ko dun, I really wanna quit for so many reasons. Basta, that was not a good working experience, and I know that I may have left few good pipol but that was not enough for me to hold on to the job. It was a blessing in disguise, I believe, for my friend whom I referred to replace my job.

For all the things, I cannot help myself to feel this kind of feeling. Joyful. Free. Enlightened. Because all along I believe that I have been a prisoner of my wrong decision. It has always been my motto that we have a freedom to choose what we want but do not have the freedom to choose the necessity of our choice. I really do not know what has made me hang on with my work, what has been the reason/s why I still worked for the company even for the so many grudges that I have. It may be because of few pipol whom I had good personal interaction making my stay a bit bearable.

Good thing that this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity came (which I promise to announce in weeks time). I now have the reason not to stay long and burden myself with the so many things that pushed me to the limits.

I am now at home. Yah! And I never felt so relaxed. I have been so tensed with the deadlines and everything which I know myself that I am capable not to spill my emotions that easy. I am good at those crucial moments. I can easily go through smoothly to a situation where there is a need for a good decision. With the help of my angel (holy spirit) I am able to get out successfully in whatever diffucult situation I am in. And when I was there at my desk, I didn't know what to do...I really am scattered. I misplaced myself. My emotions are very visible. And I cannot control myself and let the pipol see how weak I am.

Yes, I felt very weak yet I pretend to be strong. So many times that I really do not know where I am going through.

When I passed the board exam last year, it was one of the best accomplishments that I had (together with the financial help of Popoy too!). I am so full of dreams. I am so ambitious. I know that I have proven myself that I can go far beyond what other pipol (they know who they are..wahaha =P) has stopped me from doing. I know that there is much better things in life ahead of mine. I WAS inspired. That was before I worked for the company. I do not want to blame them. But it was all I felt. Betrayed. Unfair/Bias. Full of very competitive pipol.

All I want is to get out.

Just the thought of it, my last day came, last August 17, 2007. It was raining so hard. I felt not going to work. I did. I was screaming aload for obvious reasons. Dancing to every beat of my heart. Yes, I was truly, madly, deeply crazy. Crazy enough that I know I have made the right choice. I am back to my usual self. I missed being like this. I missed all the fun stuff that I used to do. I missed being with my Koino family for all the events that I should have attended to but was not able to do since I have to work even on Sundays. I missed the gala we used to have with daduts, john at little sissy. I missed being with popoy. I missed my life for the eight months that has passed. And now I am back with revenge to make the most of what I missed over that long and tedious months. With the few weeks that I have, I should be able to maximize the time I have with my loved ones.

So whatever events you have there, please please invite me. If I am available, I will come.

Weeeeh! Sunday is Koino Sportsfest. We (with popoy of course!) will come. Next monday, we will visit Judy, our preggy tropa in Pila, Laguna to make up the lost kwentos and everything. We will be having our group date at MOA, when? I really do not know. But sure thing, it will come. Ooooops! I missed my Accenture friends, I am going to visit them once again.

Sana I can really make the most of it. So when the time that I am about to go. I have good memories to bring with me. Crying time is also near. Huhu. But at least, I was able to regain the true me before I leave. Where? Secret. Just keep on reading my site and you will know.

Party Pipol on a Friday night!!!!!

When it rains...it pours.. =)

and I am happy with it..hahaha..

(grab from flickr)
with the nonstop falling of rain..kagabi pa lang..nakangiti na ako..

ikaw, di ka ba natutuwa? kahit sumakit ang balakang ko sa pag-upo sa bus dahil sobrang trapik.
at nakabili pa ako ng payong ng 50PHP sa may magallanes, masaya pa rin ako dahil umuulan.

Bakit?

Kasi need natin yun..we need rain right? Because of the drought that we are experiencing right now.

For those who are concern for our future generation, simple lang po..just click in the link in my "Simple Lang" post.

"Ohhhh..I hear laughter in the rain..walking hand in hand with the one I love..
Ooh how I loved the rainy days, and the happy way I feel inside"

(iksis: popoy, im thankful..you brighten my day)

One Bite at a Time

to release the undefined anxiety...

Simple Lang

Isang click..makakatulong ka na.. =)

Sagipin natin ang Inang Kalikasan!!!

Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo?!?

Most of us, in our twenty-something years of existence on earth, are probably considering this next level of relationship. We all know that it is not all happiness and success in that kind of stage. Most marriages nowadays are weak and ends up getting annulment/divorce.

I wanna share with you an inspiring story from an email I got from my ever-wonderful second family's group email, KOINONIA DE LETRAN.

So here it goes. Happy Reading. =)

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking.

I want a divorce.

I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question.

This made her angry.

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible.

Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me.

But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.

From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning.

This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote,

I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah.. blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

"Marriage is falling in love over and over again,

ALWAYS WITH THE SAME PERSON. "

Happiness.

UY! Global Warming...

Natatakot ako kasi nararamdaman ko ng ito..

So I am making some move from now on..

Conserve water please.

For now, tulog muna ako. Sarap! Global Warming talaga..di na kasi nakatiis si daddy..pinagawa na aircon..wahaha..

Again, campaigning for your efforts to help reduce Global Warming!

Night Night Pips!

Celebration to the Max!!!

Last Friday was Gary's 26th Birthday! Woohoo..he has been in existence for that long na..haha..


Anyways, as agreed by both of us, we both took our work off. Haha..celebrate muna namin ang momentous day na ito..

After meeting at Balibago Complex, we headed to the busy Manila for Gary's renewal of license. O di ba? That day pa talaga sya nag renew. Since we will be waiting for the next 5 or so hours before we claim his new card, dumaan muna kami sa aking old dormitory. Kina ate connie at Kuya Fred sa tabi ng CPAR. Bought siomai, coke at sinukmani..my food there!

Reminisce, how I struggled through the tedious preparations for the board exam with the help of my dearest Popoy. Hanap ko si Mang Jes sa CPAR, wala na daw kasi may naging problema. Sayang, he has been one of the good person I met there. Tas, I heard that the Roque Brothers are teaching again there. Sayang makulit pa naman yun 2 na yun.

Ok then, after that, we headed to the Sto. Domingo Church, the place were I said yes to Gary. ACtually sa jeep lang after we attended mass there back 2004. Walang mass at that time (11am) so pray na lang kami. Punta kami adoration. TAbi kami nagdasal. He hold my little finger with his little finger.

Silence.

No words has been said, only eyes full of expression. That only "US" can interpret. Right there, I knew that whatever it is that we will be going through. We will be able to get out of it, rocking it hard and we will still be holding each other's hand until the end. I once again fall for him.

Deeper.

Then, after the silent prayers we had, labas kami. Kita namin yun matanda, nakaupo, nagpapaypay. Donya ang lola mo! Hingi sya ng money pra sa fud. Bigay ako. Sabi sa amin. Magkamukha kayo. Sayang, may libre kasal dyan kaya lang tapos na ang seminar. Tingin lang kami ni Gary sa isa't isa. Hahaha. Sabi ko, it's a sign..kulit!

Punta kami sa SM Manila, kain sa KFC. Simpleng Saya. Sarap talaga! We are laughing all the time. As if, di kami nag-away last night. Hihi.

This has been one of my greatest wishes everyday.

To be with the my man for the rest of my life.

And that I know deep in my heart that it will come true...

God bless this day..I love you so much Lord! and I love him so much too!

Happy Birthday Joy

Jocelyn

From a surname which was originally taken from the Norman French given name Joscelin, itself derived from the Germanic name Gautelen, which was derived from the name of a Germanic tribe, the Gauts.

Her number is 7, and here it says...

#7 - THE INTELLECTUAL

7 's are the searchers. Always probing for hidden information, they find it difficult to accept things at face value. Emotions don't sway their decisions. Questioning everything in life, they don't like to be questioned themselves. They're never off to a fast start, and their motto is slow and steady wins the race. They come across as philosophers and being very knowledgeable, and sometimes as loners. They are technically inclined and make great researchers uncovering information. They like secrets.They live in their own world and should learn what is acceptable and what is not in the world at large.

Hope you enjoy your day!!! Ingat ka lagi po..Labsyu mats!

I am hurted

Yes I am.

And I really wanna feel it.

Deep enough.

Until I can fully realized what it is that keeps me in pain.

May I find the reason.

Heal me please, Oh Lord.

Amen.

~ Jil went up the hill ~

And she came back!

Yup!

After more than 2 months of going "abroad", she "again" returned home at last.
Sa dami siguro ng mga tao na nagsasabi sa kanyang umuwi na siya. Narindi na din ang aking bunsong sistah!

After the so many hurtful words that has been said by her to him (my dad that is!) and him to her. It all ended to the uber-old-but-meaningful saying that still, "blood is thicker that anything soluble or solvent, haha!"

So, the next thing shall be..what shall her boyfriend's next move now?

Daduts said that he will not accept the guy, but who knows, my dad is much more fickleminded than any girls i know! haha..

So that was it, nice to end a wonderful weekend!